For most of my life, I’ve lived according to what I think other people expect me to do. Try hard in school, work towards something greater, always on — never stopping to think about what’s best for me. Even when I’m deciding what I want most in life, part of me has always thought about it will affect everyone around me.
Recently, I had a big decision to make. And when it came down to it, everyone told me: do what your gut is telling you. Choose happiness.
Life in the Lost and Found Bin is about my discovering who I am and what I really want. And while I know myself much better than when I created this blog, I think I still have a lot to learn. I have always had dreams, but I have always questioned them.
It’s not that I’ve questioned whether or not I really want my dreams to come true. Rather, I have been clouded in self-doubt about whether or not I had the power to really make them come true. And let’s be real: most people don’t make their dreams come true. For some, maybe they don’t have what it takes. Maybe it is about knowing the right people and having the right opportunities. But for others, I think it’s about life getting in the way. The unexpected happens and sometimes you have to reevaluate what is most important to you. And I think part of maturing is realizing that sometimes your “dreams” aren’t going to be your first priority. And that’s okay.
So, for now, I am choosing happiness. I only recently discovered that was an option — one that I could choose. Maybe I’m not Lena Dunham or Donald Glover, living out my dreams at 23. But everybody’s path is different.
I am willing to work hard. I am willing to give my dreams everything I’ve got. But I’m going to do it my way. I’m okay with it taking a little longer.
That’s why I am choosing happiness.